At least once a day I ask my husband the question, "Think we're supposed to be this tired?"
In my mind I ask it way more than just once though, and it's followed by other questions like:
Should our house be this messy still?
Will I ever not wear maternity jeans?
Should I be back to cooking?
When will I not feel like a freight train hit me?
When are my hormones going to calm.the.heck.down?
She's almost 3 months...should we be like, pros by now or what?
Questions, questions, questions. I have a thousand. And when they're swirling around I think to myself one of two things.
The first is that I seriously need to just calm the heck down. Give myself a break. I not only just grew a human inside of my body, but then I birthed her, and now I'm solely sustaining her little life with my body as well. That's a loooooot. That's a lot! Calm down, Kir. Go sit on the couch & play Words With Friends or something.
But then I think the second thing, and that is that I should be back to normal. That it's been 3 months & it's time to have more energy. Feel more like myself. Be close to fitting back into my jeans (it is so not happening). That I should be resuming life as it used to be, but now just with Ellie here.
I'm assuming life never goes back to the normal it was before having a baby- but it seems like from the outside looking in- that most people's lives go back to the way they were in some ways. People seem to still make dinner. They seem to still dress cute & do their hair from time to time. Right? If I run errands with E all day I get home & literally feel like I ran 3 marathons in a row. With no water break. Tired. So incredibly tired.
So what's realistic? I literally have never had a first baby before- so you know- I'm new. What was your story with your first baby? Did you find yourself back to your old self practically by this point? Or was it longer? Everyone's different- obviously. But stories are helpful. They make you feel not so confused & alone. So shoot! I wanna hear- how was life different after your baby & when did you get your groove back? And should I feel guilty about buying frozen dinners as often as I do? I think they may put drugs in Stouffer's Mac and Cheese because it sure does keep finding it's way into our home.
I'm assuming life never goes back to the normal it was before having a baby- but it seems like from the outside looking in- that most people's lives go back to the way they were in some ways. People seem to still make dinner. They seem to still dress cute & do their hair from time to time. Right? If I run errands with E all day I get home & literally feel like I ran 3 marathons in a row. With no water break. Tired. So incredibly tired.
So what's realistic? I literally have never had a first baby before- so you know- I'm new. What was your story with your first baby? Did you find yourself back to your old self practically by this point? Or was it longer? Everyone's different- obviously. But stories are helpful. They make you feel not so confused & alone. So shoot! I wanna hear- how was life different after your baby & when did you get your groove back? And should I feel guilty about buying frozen dinners as often as I do? I think they may put drugs in Stouffer's Mac and Cheese because it sure does keep finding it's way into our home.